en route; 
i've been getting angry a lot more lately, and i really don't like it.
i can't tell if it's because i might be PMSing or some people just have this uncanny ability to annoy me. and at the end of the day, i end up feeling tired, heavy hearted, and absolutely displeased.
so from now on,
i shall do my best to keep calm.
i will keep calm through rude, sarcastic people who need to learn a sense of basic courtesy and professionalism.
i will keep calm through people who get angry when others are angry without even learning the reasons why.
i will keep calm through the mountains of work that i have left to do.
and now i shall shut up before i get started on certain topics &end up feeling angry again.
xoxo; i'm not a fan of sharing these thoughts.
i always end up feeling bad about myself or end up feeling like i've been a bitch for sharing these bad thoughts with whoever i trust.
but at the end of the day,
it's really hard to take it all in.
no matter how far you get in life, how much money you make, or how high up whichever career ladder you climb, you're the same as the person next to you. all these things don't make you more 'human' than another person. all these things don't warrant you treating others with disrespect. it's basic courtesy to return at least a glance when a person (who has done nothing but try his best to treat you as a good friend or even a family) talks to you. at the end of the day, it is in your capacity as a person to treat another with decent, basic, respect.
so it ends here.
i'm not going to try to defend you in front of anyone or try to explain your behaviours to them, neither will i beg you to be the same person as you were before. i pray for your sake that you will one day realize the person you've become and just get your head out of those clouds. it's finally january 2014,
and A LOT has happened since then.
i started work in 2012, and st andrew's has been a haven for me since then. i love the work, although it gets tiring sometimes, and i love my colleagues, and now that it's time to let go, i'm having a hard time adjusting. perhaps this is how our kids feel when we're asking them to accept something as simple as walking the other direction instead of a preferred route.
2013 was a crazy year for me.
i learned a lot, both relationships wise & work wise, and i learned how to handle situations i never thought i could handle. and ultimately, at the end of the day, two amazing things i am grateful for are:
#1 my beautiful family, who never fails to be there for me
#2 bee &my wonderful friends, who have been there and are still standing strong no matter what.
i'm not ready to move on to my next phase in life,
and even until today, i wish i didnt make this move, but i prayed &God responded in this manner, so i shall put my faith in him and move towards the road he's set out for me.
so thankyou, 2013, and the lovely people encountered in 2013,
i will never, ever, take for granted or forget.
xoxo;
