en route; 
today marks the last day i'm studying for exams (i hope).
tomorrow marks my last exam in nus (once again, i hope).
and right now, i dont even have the mood to be nostalgic or reminisce or whatever.
everything that's going on in my life is just making me very, very, very sad. i have no outlet to let out anything that i want to say,
and this feeling fucking sucks. IT'S HEREEEE!!!
f'ing pretty, and one of the best birthday presents i've ever bought myself <3<3<3 (the silver one, btw)
ONE PAPER TMR (but i cannot concentrate cos i just keep thinking about how awesome my new ring is &how tempted i am to buy every single colour they have before it's all sold out, but i promised myself i wouldnt buy anymore rings until the end of the year!!), and ONE MORE ON WEDNESDAY, THEN I'D BE FREEEEE.
YAY. time to hit the books start thinking of what to do for my birthday. HAHA. top 10 countdown;
1) ONE PAPER DOWN, two more to go! (and i end freaking late. ROARS.)
2) i actually watched the arsenal vs tottenham match WITHOUT needing mixed nuts or ching there to entertain me. it was actually quite fun. plus there was the england vs somoa rugby match after that, so it made me uber happy.
3) myboy cooked me horfun that day, and it was really, really, super good <3
4) i counted my rings: i have 59 rings, 3 pending (out of which i think 2 might not arrive because the seller went MIA :( roars.), and 3 pieces that i really, really want, but i told myself i wont buy anymore rings for the rest of the year. it seems like a short period of time, but it really feels horrible on my part. sigh. i think it's time to get rid of some old rings. and maybe find a nice ring drawer. HAHA.
5) i feel like i've been at the crossroads in my life, and it's still ongoing, up till today. i'm stuck, and i have no idea what i really want to do, and i know it's only been a week or two since i applied for jobs, but nobody's calling me or anything so i feel damn sad. REJECTION SUCKS MAN. hahahaha.
6) spoke to my awesome best friend, who reassured me that God has a plan for me no matter what happens, just like how He planned out every step of the way for her.
7) my polaroid films were hijacked by two kids today, and i feel damn sad, cos they didnt want to listen to me on how to use it properly, they took SEVEN shots out of the only ten that i have (instead of the two pictures that they promised), AND out of the seven shots, two or three are normal, smiling, nice shots, the rest are random shots/shots with cut-out faces, AND i have a picture of my television set showing spongebob squarepants.
thankfully, i love kids, so i kept quiet and let them continue their fun. ROARS.
8) sad world news #1: North Korea Fires Artillery on South Korean Island
9) sad world news #2: Cambodia Stampede Kills Hundreds
10) MY BIRTHDAY IS COMINGGGG!!!! <3<3<3 *throws confetti*
GOODNIGHT WORLD. 
study study study.
my life these days have been revolving around: work, my lecture notes, my stationary, my daisy duck dispenser, my puppy waterbottle, my laptop and my phone. and obviously food.
i cannot wait for the 1st of dec, the 8th of dec (obviously :P) and the 11th of dec. WHOOPEEE <3 'the more the merrier'.
somehow, it can never just be the two of us. everything's so different now.
so awkward.
so stiff.
and i dont know what to do anymore.
i need a reason. any reason. i told myself i'd stay out of this.
i told myself i'd stay out of this.
i told myself i'd stay out of this.
i told myself i'd stay out of this.
i told myself i'd stay out of this.
i told myself i'd stay out of this.
i told myself i'd stay out of this.
but. how long can i keep my mouth shut when i see so many obvious things in front of me?
i feel like i'm back in an all girls' secondary school. 
