en route; 
dear lungs,
please work harder. "It’s just a matter of realizing when that breaking point has been reached. Unfortunately we don’t always have a specific occurrence that will trigger us hastily finding the nearest exit. Everyday people are cheated on, cussed out, physically harmed, mentally abused – very nasty stuff that you might think it would be easy to leave behind. It’s not always that simple for everyone. Some people want to believe in others to change, to give the person they care for the benefit of the doubt, to holdout hope that one-day things will be better. It’s not always the smart decision, but the smart decision isn’t always the easy one to make, much less follow through on."
- Christopher Hudspeth, Some People Aren't Worth Keeping Around
i hope you know exactly what you're doing.
don't give others the bullshit that you're trying to change or that you've really changed, because if you really were trying or really did change, you would appreciate the wonderful person you have in front of you, rather than cheating on her &lying to everyone. i'm keeping quiet not because i condone what you're doing. rather, i'm keeping quiet because i understand the consequences that follow, and it's unpleasant to everyone you've crossed paths with.
so consider this a warning, and keep yourself in check.
one wrong move, and you're out. 
happy early birthday, my dearest michelletan (:
little pancakes --> yahava --> venezia's --> shopping --> itacho --> robert timm's --> church --> shopping (again) --> sushi tei
weekend's almost over!
i really wish i knew how to stop trying to make everyone happy. "But we are still being touched by that past, all over, constantly. We are taught that this is a bad thing, that the parts of our lives we no longer acknowledge can just be shed like a heavy winter coat and moved on from.
...
I don’t want to move on. I don’t want to leave my past in small increments behind me. I want to take something from every experience, good or bad, and find it useful in some tiny way. I don’t want the process of recovery from an ending to feel like a hill I have to climb, one that has a distinct beginning and end. I don’t need a thousand voices telling me to “get over it,” as though I could even if I wanted to. Most of all, I don’t want to fear every new love and every new adventure because I imagine that, if it doesn’t work out how I wanted it to, I will have to pretend it never happened at all."
- Chelsea Fagan, How Do You Move On?
colourful meringues, sausage &egg rosti, peach smoothies, churros, meiji yoghurt drink, one litre of asahi, chocolate cupcakes, coke &the company of amazing friends, aka ching, kai, alvin &kenchin (:
on a very spendthrift note, i've been on an online (and potentially offline, if i had the time to head to town &walk around) shopping spree, so i actually have two asos loots on the way in and at least one item the shopping carts of about four or five other shopping sites.
THIS. MUST. STOP.
this is most unhealthy for my bank account.
happy deepavali, everyone! <3
it's back to work tmr :(
first up on the agenda:
#1 happy belated birthday, ying! (:
this really is quite belated, considering that this happened last week, but it was nonetheless a good dinner at Little Diner with amazing company (: thank God for these two beautiful friends <3
#2 movie night!
rah &i got pizza &had a typical stay home movie night.
we caught Salmon Fishing in the Yemen, which sounded really silly but ended up being quite an okay with movie, especially with the two of us (or maybe mostly me) trying to guess the entire plot throughout the whole movie, and with sarah's incessant cries of "NOOOOO DON'T GO WITH THAT GUY THE OTHER ONE IS MORE HANDSOME." HAHA.
much to our dismay, we also managed to finished one pizza each :/
#3 spin class :D
went for my first spin class with pris, which turned out to be deaaaad tiring but fun all the same. perhaps i'd wake up tmr morning regretting going for the class, but for now, the verdict stands that it was a pretty good class.
happy weekend, everyone!
holidays are coming! (for me, anyway) "Now, with no walls, we live in the wide, wide world. But the world is much wider and much weirder than we could have ever imagined. Indeed, from our current vantage-point the world seems limitless, running on and on forever; never-ending, simply curving, sloping downward until it is just out of view. We sit in our armchairs and look out at it, this unending world. We have to admit: it is all somewhat very terrifying, to have no limits like this. Shouldn’t it stop? we say to ourselves. But it does not.
...
If we could all only live in boxes — a thing to think about at night, under the endless stars. …If we could do it. And if we did it, would it be cowardly and turtle-ish, to live hidden like that? Or would it simply be a necessary shielding from the wider world?"
- Oliver Miller, Housepainting
i used to speak of bubbles &hiding in them,
and while i have recently stepped out of them, a friend has indirectly reminded me that perhaps stepping out was not a good thing. happiness? uncertainty? maybe staying inside my bubble would've been a much better option.
g'night world,
the meds are finally kicking in. stuck at home with a dying throat, a leaky nose, &a throbbing head.
plus lacking in sleep, because i cant sleep properly at night, and my bodyclock wakes me up early.
on a more unsatisfying note,
pris just told me that our frequented malay stall sold our favourite mee goreng today, and boonyi is happily playing pokemon WITHOUT ME. honestly, i just want the pokemon, not his company (HAHAHA SORRY BOONYI, you know i still care :P)
xoxo, people.
the sick one needs to crash. 
because you can always count on your best friend to spring a tiny surprise to complete your day &make your night <3
"You shouldn’t wait to be happy because you owe it to yourself to be your best self. You shouldn’t wait to be happy because nobody can make you happy but you. Life is sort of pointless, I mean except for sample sales and Magnolia cupcakes. You shouldn’t wait to be happy because what are you waiting for? Tomorrow may never come."
- Madison Moore, Don't Wait To Be Happy
