en route; 
yes please.
"27 Ways To Treat Yourself After A Hard Day:
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2. A glass of wine. or seven.
3. Buy yourself that thing you want that you’re always putting off. Just do it now. Stop putting it off. Stop feeling guilty. You earned it.
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7. Make your bed and spray it with citrus-y perfume. Citrus boosts the mood and relieves stress. And it’s always nice when your bed smells good.
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9. Buy flowers for your house and put them in every room. Turn your apartment into a green house.
10. Ice. Cream.
11. Put on some music and dance around by yourself in your room.
12. Get a crazy delicious Starbucks drink that probably has 12,000 calories. Feel no shame.
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15. Make a list of everything you’re grateful for so that even though today was hard, you remember there are great things in your life.
16. Text or call someone you really enjoy and tell them you love and appreciate them.
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19. Online shop, or at least window shop and bookmark awesome stuff to get later. It’s a great distraction.
20. Exercise. Even doing some small stretches can help relax you and make your body feel better.
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25. Put on a fuzzy bathrobe and fuzzy slippers and anything else fuzzy you own. All at once."
- Gaby Dunn, 27 Ways To Treat Yourself After A Hard Day
happy wednesday, everyone!
i hope your week is going better than mine <3 pissed.
pissed beyond words.
don't expect me to make you a part of my life if you can't even do the same.
on a less upsetting note,
i'm all set with spoons, jars, gin &elderflower liqueur. all i need now are juices, cucumber, tonic water &an afternoon baking session to make the perfect (to me, anyway) tea set.
ttfn!
i need to distract myself in hope that my anger will dissipate. 
"We have control of a lot of things in life, but who comes in and out of it isn’t one of ‘em. Sure we can decide who we allow access to our heart and who gets the boot. When we’re introduced, where we meet and who we are at that time isn’t exactly something we can grab by the horns right that second. Perhaps it’s all meant to play out the way it does, but sometimes it can feel like it’s not. It seems as if the universe slipped up and made a mistake."
- Christopher Hudspeth, We Met At The Worst Possible Time
i love public holidays where i get to spend time with my loves, aka ching &charlotte (:
woke up late, went for brunch, rested at home, went to daiso (AND FOUND WHAT I NEEDED WOOHOO), then headed to ben's place for an impromptu BBQ! (: thanks to our lovey dovey couple (mich&ben) for organizing!
selamat hari raya, everyone!
hope you had an amazing one (:
#1
elderflower liqueur! (:
found a recipe which includes my two favourites (gin &elderflower) together, so i'm pretty psyched! if it turns out to be awesome, i'd probably have bottles &bottles of elderflower stored at home :P
#2
i completely suck at 'catching'/'tag' on the iPad.
this is what we spent doing at coffee bean @hv waiting for the rain to stop :P and yes, i completely suck at the game. i keep hitting onto walls &getting caught, which is most tragic, because after i get caught, i simply can't catch anyone. besides YX's friend, Daniel. we both suck at the game &so we spent the last game tagging each other because we could ONLY catch each other :/
#3
MY BELOVED ICE-COLD SKINNY HANDED FRIEND IS ENGAGED!! *throws confetti*
congratulations to him &his beautiful fiancé (:
so far so good (:
have an amazing weekend, everyone!
xoxo;
"It seems to me, though, that it boils down to just one fundamental thing: Falling in love is, if not easy, then at least commonplace. Coordinating your love with another – that is difficult, that is miraculous because it entails sacrifice."
- Andrea Benito, All Love Ends In Heartbreak
i'm insecure, bogged down with work,
and tired of feeling the way i do. i dislike it, so i drown myself in work &coffee.
and while nothing changes, distraction makes everything better.
thanks to marcus for being awesome &bringing me to grab some ice-cream!
and HAPPY BIRTHDAY, beloved SHERILYNSOH (:
g'night world. 
(:
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this week has been a crazy week.
and despite feeling completely bipolar in these crazy times, i'm glad to say that God sent little reminders to me everywhere i went.
"If He never thought we'd be able to take it &come out a better person, He'd have never let it happen to us."
- Didi, 2012
so here's to better days/weeks ahead of us,
and may we feel less bipolar each &every day <3 
decided to pamper my kids with presents &popcorn &candy, followed by a mini touch rugby 'golf' session with roy, a good hearty lunch with rach&pris at parkway, then more 'golf' sessions with pris instead of rushing out our reports while waiting for anniversary/thanksgiving service to start :P
PLUS. we played the 'Chubby Bunny' (Chubby Bubby?) game after dinner, and roy emerged champion with 10 chubby bunnies (bubbies? HAHA so completely lost because i can't even pronounce it properly after stuffing it into my mouth), while i made it to 7! HOHO. pris only made it to 4, but that's probably because she has yet to master the skill of being a hamster. HAHA.
on another note,
happy children's day,
& happy 7th anniversary to st andrew's autism centre!
xoxo; "Think about leaving all the time. Let this thought consume you, eat at you, contaminate your inner dialogue. Let the topic dominate the conversations you have with your friends, your family, even strangers. Feel yourself become weighed down by your wavering. To stay to leave to stay to leave."
- Stephanie White, How To Leave
on monday, i was distressed.
on tuesday, i was disheartened.
wednesday? i just felt like i was on the road to numbness.
but thank God for my amazing DIDI who doesn't know anything but messaged to send his love, for the awesome ESTHER who messaged just to ask if i was okay &to remind me that i could always turn to her if i ever needed to, to the white chicken (HAHA don't be angry, you know you're an awesome toilet bowl) SEANTAN for being my listening ear &retail friendship therapy partner, to PRIS at work for feeding me with chips to cheer me up, &RACHKEH at work for baking the yummiest food everrr <3
i. will. be. okay. everything's the way it is now because i didn't deal with it earlier.
because i thought that since i was being pushed away, it really didn't matter to the other person whether or not i was there. because i thought that i had time to think things through.
but no, time waits for no man.
and now i'm done. i'm done, i'm out, and i'm gone. because it seems to be the only way to settle things: by running away. 
