en route; 
so i spent the past week in malaysia, which proved to be a terrific getaway in my troubled times.
i left feeling upset &unsettled, but somehow being there with my family &meeting up with relatives and family friends made it all better. it's funny how my friends can say something to me &i'd be nonchalant, but those same words said by my grandparents can render tears to my eyes. perhaps i've managed to settle some thoughts. let's just say that i came back happy &seemingly ready to face whatever was to be thrown at my face.
putting things into perspective,
2011 has definitely been a year of growth for me. sure, it hasn't been all that fantastic. i feel like i've gone through more than i've ever been through in the past two years. i cried, i got upset, my mood was swinging so drastically i thought i had turned bipolar, and definitely a lot more, and this trip has summed it all up for me. so instead of whining about how horrible my year has been, i should honestly give thanks for the opportunity to learn from my mistakes, and to come out stronger from everything that has been thrown my way.
so as the new year lurks around the corner,
here's to a blessed christmas, &the many more things to come.
merry christmas, everyone! (:
i miss you.
but i'm beginning to learn to live without you. 
