en route; 
“There will come a time," i said, "when all of us are dead. All of us. There will come a time when there are no human beings remaining to remember that anyone ever existed or that our species ever did anything. There will be no one left to remember Aristotle or Cleopatra, let alone you. Everything that we did and built and wrote and thought and discovered will be forgotten and all of this"--I gestured encompassingly--"will have been for naught. Maybe that time is coming soon and maybe it is millions of years away, but even if we survive the collapse of our sun, we will not survive forever. There was a time before organisms experienced consciousness, and there will be time after. And if the inevitability of human oblivion worries you, I encourage you to ignore it. God knows that's what everyone else does.”
― John Green, The Fault in Our Stars
reading a book about death &people dying isn't exactly a fantastic read early in the morning or late after work. it makes you put your book down in fear of crying like a mad woman on the bus, and it makes you feel this sense of sadness. don't get me wrong, The Fault in Our Stars was a fantastic book, but when it comes coupled with the fact that your grandfather is back in hospital, weak &crying to himself, it really makes you feel like crap.
it really makes you feel like crying. 