en route; 
"The same resigned look, the same desperate need to justify the damaging behavior, the same rationalizing of their obvious discomfort with their place in life. They have led themselves here like toy cars on a circuit — one they could step off of if they moved only an inch to the left or right, but outside of which they cannot understand life exists. We are all on these circuits, our own version of circling down a certain drain, and it’s clear that remaining in the whirlpool only leads to profound dissatisfaction. What greater fear is there than trapping yourself in a cage of your own unwillingness to grow?"
- Chelsea Fagan, Are We Doing This To Ourselves?
i hate the fact that it affects me.
i hate the fact that despite whatever you're putting me through, i actually still care, at least a little bit. i wish for the first time in this one month, you'd just put all your pessimistic thoughts aside and just LISTEN. just for this once. but no. apparently i'm not even worth it for you to listen. 