en route; everything's the way it is now because i didn't deal with it earlier.
because i thought that since i was being pushed away, it really didn't matter to the other person whether or not i was there. because i thought that i had time to think things through.
but no, time waits for no man.
and now i'm done. i'm done, i'm out, and i'm gone. because it seems to be the only way to settle things: by running away.