en route; 
i'm not a fan of sharing these thoughts.
i always end up feeling bad about myself or end up feeling like i've been a bitch for sharing these bad thoughts with whoever i trust.
but at the end of the day,
it's really hard to take it all in.
no matter how far you get in life, how much money you make, or how high up whichever career ladder you climb, you're the same as the person next to you. all these things don't make you more 'human' than another person. all these things don't warrant you treating others with disrespect. it's basic courtesy to return at least a glance when a person (who has done nothing but try his best to treat you as a good friend or even a family) talks to you. at the end of the day, it is in your capacity as a person to treat another with decent, basic, respect.
so it ends here.
i'm not going to try to defend you in front of anyone or try to explain your behaviours to them, neither will i beg you to be the same person as you were before. i pray for your sake that you will one day realize the person you've become and just get your head out of those clouds. 